Confidence. Let's change.

Okay so one of the things I struggle with my life is confidence.
Confidence with my dancing and confidence with girls.
So there was this girl that was checking me out in the gym during my hell week. This week consists of full blown out sprints and super sets.

This asian girl, she was decent, but I was still so nervous about talking to her.
First of all, SHE WAS CHECKING ME OUT!
The goal is to talk to the girl, I don't even have to get her phone number or anything. It's for the sake of talking to her and building my confidence.
She was wearing a pink tank top with some sports shorts. She was doing abs and this weird machine that you use your outer hips and your inner thigh muscles.
She went on the treadmill and I went to the one right next to her. FUCK! I didn't say anything.
All I was thinking was maybe these videos will help me and motivate me, but sadly they didn't.
I needed to take action. ANY ACTION would be fine.

Apparently, the girls that I have talked with get nervous when I talk to them too. I guess it is okay to be nervous. Not everyone is perfect, but there is a difference between cowards and the courageous.

I can speak in front of many people, I have performed dances in front of people, I have played piano in front of many people, and I have sang in front of many people. The number one fear in America is PUBLIC SPEAKING. I CAN DO THAT!
I went to Millenium Dance Complex and I embarrassed myself. I knew I wasn't good, but I AM GOING TO GET BETTER AND BETTER! Because I want to be GOOD!

Soo why I am afraid/fearful/nervous to talk to girls? Any girl that I find attractive in fact.
Girls like me...when I feel like I will be stuck in the friend zone. I just feel like they won't except me for who I am. I feel like they won't like me. I feel like they might think I am weird.
I feel like sometimes I am just limiting myself.

Alright. There was this one instance when I was at the food expo. Where Marcus wanted me to talk to these girls and he asked them, "why does he seem so nervous?" to the girls.
One of the cute girls taller than me replied, "I don't know why he is so nervous, he's good looking."

Alright, let's think back in high school. You didn't really have any enemies. You only had people you didn't like only because they seemed unfriendly.
You are very friendly, but that does not mean that you can't take control. You have balls!
If you think back to your accomplishments, not many could have done what you did. Not many are doing what you are doing. So who is the only one that is holding you back?
It's you and your silly beliefs.

Nearly everyone you have met likes you.
Your teacher in comm class has said so. It is apparent in Psychology class where the teacher knows your name.
That one dude patrick approached you.
People miss you at work.
That one cool dude Caleb wants to hang out with you.
Jason wants to dance with you.
Some filipinos want you to choreograph a dance.
A DANCE instructor wants you to help with a dance.

There are so many people that want you to succeed and the only person that's holding you back is you.

GOD HAS PUT THE RIGHT PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE.
GOD HAS OPENED THE DOOR FOR YOU.
NOW IT IS TIME TO TRUST HIM.

It is time to become fearless.
It is time for you not to hold back anymore.

Most of the time, which is almost all the time people like you.
There is nothing bad to like about you.
You are funny, enthusiastic, you are very talented, good looking, you have GOD, you are the life of the party. That's what usually happens. Everyone knows you. All you have to be is yourself.
There is one thing you can work on and that's assertiveness.

You have everything else going on for you.